I'm up too late

I had a wonderful weekend with my girlfriend and her friends (who are now my friends, I think) and was able to share my concerns and give advice and feel pretty good in spite of the personal issue and work issues I'm going through.  The best part?  I don't have to thank any supernatural beings for having such a good friend, or being caught in a big safety net when I could have had a big fall. 

I don't have to believe Karma caught me or anyone's mad at me for this all to be happening, either.  This gives me the total freedom to trust my instincts (after all, I have a lot of life experience that really gives me a lot to work with).  I ask who I want for advice.  I don't have to solicit advice from someone with ulterior motives, or a ridiculously superstitious world view.  Again, I rely on fact and people I can trust.

So trusting myself - that I'm making the right decisions, that I am soliciting the right people for the right advice, and that I am taking care of myself and the situation to the best of my ability?  Priceless.  Having a weekend long retreat with my ladies?  What a great thing, and with phenomenal timing.  I will make a point of doing this again in the future, it was very rewarding and very much boosted my spirits.  

I (again) don't have any superstitious doubts.  I've made up my mind and am sticking to it, until I get more information, and more helpful information.  I'm not relying on some supernatural power to look my way and help me out - I have a plan a, b, and c.  I'm creative enough and resourceful enough to do this with the help I've surrounded myself with, because it would take a freaking long time to do on my own, and really would absorb so much of my life to flounder without good directions from people who have been through it and study what's been going on.  I have a hard time thinking I could accomplish all of what I need to by myself. 

I also want to say that society has evolved so much in even the last 100 years - we don't have to rely on misinformation and old wive's tales.  The biggest problem I see today is finding misleading information from respectable looking sources.  That, though, is where that intuition and trusting myself (gut instincts and all) really comes in handy.  If I am suspicious, or if it sounds too good or too far off-base, it will get very close evaluation. 

That's it for tonight!  Sorry if it sounds like the same thing repeated several times - I'm tired but doing well.